So I can't remember when mine started, but I am beyond shy about it. So far this is the only place I feel safe about it, does anyone else try to keep hidden from everyone?
How do you feel about your inflation fetish?
Tue, 10/11/2011 - 17:49
#1
How do you feel about your inflation fetish?
Wed, 10/12/2011 - 02:32
#3
I kept it hidden for a long time. The first time i told someone everything was a few weeks into my first relationship. I've told other people from time to time, but after a while i stopped because i decided i was using the disclosure as a surrogate for having sex with the people i told. I have now got past this and see it as something which i don't advertise publicly but sort of take the attitude that this is how i am, it's nothing to be ashamed of, and if people push at the unlocked door i've left on the internet, they will find out. You can't really be "in your face" about it because it's intrusive to other people to flaunt your sexuality at them, but the reason for my username, "nineteenthly", which is obviously not inflation related, and partly for the YouTube channel, is so that if people really do dig deep enough, they will find out who i really am from either side. I think this is about as far as i can go appropriately. So, not ashamed, not intrusive, is the path i'm trying to tread.
Wed, 10/12/2011 - 05:33
#4
sometimes for me being an inflationist is really surreal...like i sometimes imagine other guys flirting with girls the usual way, and i'd get funny looks cause im there flirting with a huge inflated girl lol i have told some people though about 4 normal internet friends of mine know and 1 of them (a girl) im soon to meet in person that's going to be scary
Wed, 10/12/2011 - 13:15
#5
i talk about it on the net when i can hide my identity. i've never openly verbally communicated with someone about it
Wed, 10/12/2011 - 14:35
#6
I like to tell others who I feel comfortable about telling about this "fetish." I really feel like it affects me some times because I get so addicted to the sight of inflating women. I used to have dreams that ended up to me to be "nightmares" cause it always about some one who I cared about ususally a girlfriend, or best friend, or my close friend/ sister inflating really big to the point of exploding.
Wed, 10/12/2011 - 14:36
#7
Otherwise I keep it to myself cause I dont want people thinking I am some kind of....well.... not a nice word to say.
Wed, 10/12/2011 - 20:48
#8
airtankgirl5
I enjoy it. You should too :) It'd be a real shame to be stuck with something like this and not get any pleasure out of it :)
Wed, 07/11/2012 - 10:39
#9
Helen Sweller
I agree! ^.^ though to be honest, only a few people in the real world know I have this fetish, but I try to enjoy it in my own way and share it when I can. But so far I'm just having fun sharing it online ;D
Wed, 10/12/2011 - 20:53
#10
Yeah I'm gonna keep it secret; that's why we have this forum. :-)
Thu, 10/13/2011 - 11:25
#11
jonathan856
I consider it a small part of what makes me a good person.
I used to be terrified some one mite find out but now I'm not so worried :)
Tue, 01/24/2012 - 14:04
#12
I do i cant tell any one cause they will think im wierd
Wed, 01/25/2012 - 11:24
#13
Rimou
I keep it for myself in general. I talk about i with my girlfriend and try to assume it more deeper and larger if I may say.
I told some friends about it and it doesn't seem to directly affect our relation, it sometimes comes as a play on words but nothing more and it's rare.
I'm mostly shy about it and sometimes ashamed, feeling like a psycho weirdo a little bit sometimes but it's getting rare and nuanced with the time, not really embarrassing.
What is getting embarrassing those days for me is to make it understandable to my girlfriend. It became a personal challenge : Get my girlfriend into it, ring her bell about it, find her in there. That's somehow quite selfish and it's setting the bar may be too high but I just can't let this idea go. Inflation is a part of my life, inspiring and emulating it in so many ways, not all but some fundamental ones. Many people know me for this, mostly regarding my drawings.
Wed, 01/25/2012 - 11:58
#14
Occasionally I have been bothered by it. For a while I was a fan of being inflated by a woman and humiliated until I burst, and it's kind of hard to reconcile being aroused by the idea of being murdered. The fetish in general contains some very dark domination elements; and there's one artist out there who I'm relatively certain is a serial killer.
But the fact is inflation is a part of my life, there's no fighting it. I accept it as part of who I am, and feel no shame. I don't want my family to find out, anymore then I want to tell them about any other aspect of my sex life. Similarly I don't go around telling my friends or people on the street, but I'd be less concerned if they found out.
Airtankgirl is right: enjoy it. And as for feeling like a weirdo, my mantra has always been: "at least I don't like to pee on people."
Fri, 12/14/2012 - 09:36
#15
Oh good. I was afraid I was the only person that fantasized like that.
Yeah, it can be odd. It's one thing for a guy to have an amazon fetish: strong beautiful women in a position of power over me and beating one me (and me liking it); another for it to involve said women taunting me while inflating me to the point of explosion. I mean, I could conceivably post ONE of my stories to such an Amazon dom site and have people think, "different but not of course." Posting all of them would probably raise some eyebrows (or get me a new friend to RP with if I'm luck--but I don't trust my luck).
So yeah, I keep it secret. It doesn't make a bad person for keeping it secret--I prefer the word discreet.
Wed, 01/25/2012 - 14:11
#16
Fetishes are for the bedroom. There's another thread where someone was like "let's do body inflation parades, and bring equality so we can be open with our fetish". Funny, cause I've never heard of a foot fetish parade, or a bondage fetish parade (though there is a convention for that). It's like having sex on a float in public. Some people like to have sex with people watching them, but You shouldn't have to express what turns you on to anybody except your partner.
Wed, 01/25/2012 - 20:23
#17
Fleetingsanity
I enjoy my inflation fetish but it's just that a fetish I don't go broadcasting to everyone I know what I'm into or anything. My friends know I'm into big tits but other than that I keep the expansion part to myself. I'm not ashamed of it or anything it's just I know it's not a normal thing to be into so people who don't get it would be weirded out by it so it's just easier to keep it to myself. I enjoy it and I have lots of people online who share my fetish and I can talk to them about it and that's good enough for me.
Wed, 01/25/2012 - 21:38
#18
TayvaRP
Ive kept it to myself before I knew such a site existed, because I felt 'ashamed' about it. I find it a lot better to get to others about it though, but I've never talked to anyone about it in person. Of course, I would love to have a relationship with someone who liked it as well, but I haven't found many Canadians unfortunately x_x
Wed, 01/25/2012 - 21:55
#19
alorok
Yeah, that's how I felt before I found sites like this and Deviantart accounts. But something to note I think when it comes to real life relationships is to not ever, ever, ever expect to have one with a romantic partner. But, a lot of people in this world are surprisingly accepting. Several people have found out in my life, either through accident or me telling them. But onto romance, if both people are comfortable with themselves and take things very slowly, things could work out ^_^
Thu, 01/26/2012 - 06:27
#20
TayvaRP
Thats too bad. Im probably one of the few people here that doesn't see inflation as something sexual (I just find it fun), and I was hoping to see the other side of it. But if I cant carry it through to a relationship, I guess there's no point then.
Thu, 01/26/2012 - 08:58
#21
pjoker
You don't see inflation as something sexual? That is interesting. I haven't run into anyone so far who just liked it enough to be a member of a community like this. But there must be some type of pleasure for you, right?
Thu, 01/26/2012 - 11:36
#22
TayvaRP
Not really, I don't have any real sexual interests to be completely honest. And I come here for ideas and discussion, as well as to flip through some awesome artwork. I've never really thought of it as that strange, then again I haven't really found anyone else who felt the same.
Wed, 01/25/2012 - 23:36
#25
pjoker
I've only confided in a few people about it—all of them women. I feel safer talking to women about it because with other men I feel like there's pressure for me to like the same things they do. One of the things women don't realize is that as much as there is pressure for them to look a certain way, there is as much pressure for men to only like that look. Otherwise you're a freak. So I only confide in a few trusted female friends about it, and only if I think it's appropriate in the context of our relationship.
The reason I tell them is basically for reassurance that I'm not an awful person. I've never told a sexual partner about it, never told anyone because I thought she would be into it or get me off or anything. My few conversations about it have always focused on the topic of whether I'm insane or not.
Thu, 01/26/2012 - 20:13
#26
darth_clone19
I'll reveal it to certain female friends when we reach a level of confidence with each other (and sexual tension). I hide it from everybody else for obvious reasons :p
Fri, 01/27/2012 - 00:39
#27
Inflate123
Known in full to my wife; secret in the rest of my life. :)
Fri, 01/27/2012 - 04:18
#28
TayvaRP, i find it both sexual and intellectually interesting. I'm pleasantly surprised you find it merely interesting and i wonder who else does. I don't find the videos i make sexual when i'm doing them, more sort of exercises in how far i can go, how to explain what to do and so forth. The intellect often takes over for me and i sometimes just want to know what would really happen if someone was inflated, in terms of curiosity, just as i might be interested in whether it would be possible for a person to fly with their own natural wings or if they could develop usable gills.
Sat, 01/28/2012 - 05:02
#29
I used to feel very embarrased and dirty about it, but since my boyfriend knows and I can ask him to inflate me, I feel more comfortable now. Also finding this forum made me realise what those feelings are. (I told my boyfriend after finding out) I'm very glad I found it and that there are more people who likes the same!
I just wish I didn't have to keep it secret. Keeping secrets is not nice. I'm weird and proud of it, but nobody knows how weird I REALLY am (this is the weirdest thing about me).
Sun, 01/29/2012 - 14:39
#30
Fear of discovery is why I stopped suiting up and hourglassing while on business trips or while the family was away. I had this fear of dying of a heart attack while in character, and having the police explain to my family how they found my body. It would mean that nothing else I had ever accomplished in my lifetime would be remembered or appreciated- I would be remembered as a skinny guy in a blimp suit and a bunch of thriftshop lingerie that croaked alone in a hotel room.
These days I draw pictures and write short stories for myself, and I am v e r y c a r e f u l to destroy them rather than store them where others might find them. -latecomer
Mon, 01/30/2012 - 02:28
#31
I used to fear the discovery of my inflation fetish above everything else. I also used to fear that people would discover that I liked large women. Up until mid high school I kept the latter attraction a total secret, even going so far as to coax myself into being attracted to "normal" women. I had a couple of flings with one woman and I was terrified to tell anyone.
I was also heavily bullied in elementary school and middle school, and know how easy it is for young undeveloped minds to be cruel to those who are diferent.
I'm now a college student, and my friends and family are well aware of the plus-sized girls I date. Funny thing is, I can't really remember ever "coming out" to anyone about it; I just sorta stopped hiding it. I just realized somewhere along the way that this attraction was a part of me. It wasn't a phase or something that would go away in time. And I also realized that I didn't want it to go away, even if it could. There are immensely fascinating beauties one can find in a woman with curves. I also realized that those bullying snot-nose brats who picked on me have they've all grown up, and have bigger things to worry about than some bullshit alpha-male instinct on the playground.
Being attracted to larger women is more accepted than inflation fetishism, and much more well known; I realize that. But fetishes are a bit different, as has been said earlier on this forum. It's not like physical preferences, and it's definately not like gender preferences. Those are much more essentially about life, orientation infinitely especially, because they're in regards to the person you're attracted to, not what you want to do with them. My family doesn't know, and they're not going to know, because it's not their business, quite frankly.
I recently told my best friend,who knew about my attraction to large women not long after we met, about my fetish just recently, simply because he got on the topic of fetishes. He was totally cool with it; in fact, he has friends who into things that, to me, are a lot weirder than body inflation. But it doesn't change my opinion of them. And I've told some female friends and GFs in the past about it. Some of my dates even indulged it and had fun! Some of these girls I've broken up with on less than okay terms. Do I have that lingering fear that they'll tell people? Yeah, but honestly, it was worth it. And who are they gonna tell, their friends? I doubt they care that much about some guy's kicks; you'd be surprised how such gossip is Really not interesting. As it stands, no one's told anybody anything, simply out of respect, or the aforementioned not really caring.
Long story short, if you love someone in that special way and you want to explore this fetish with them, let em know. And don't think its this terrible thing you have to keep locked away from the light of day; as it stands, its just something personal and intimate, like sex should be. Don't go waving it around, but don't be ashamed of it either. Haha, penis innuendo!
And Pro tip: The great thing about inflation fetishes are that they're obscure enough for people to not catch on that they're sexual. Most people just get confused, and if someone finds a stray piece of inflation art you can just say it was a comic page, or something.
(Sorry for the long post. If it's a problem I can condense it. Just lemme know.)
Fri, 12/21/2012 - 09:22
#32
No! Dont apologize for long messages. Thats what this place is for, writing, communication. It seems a lot longer when you write it than read it. It was a good message and I agree with a lot of what you said, and what other people said. I dont tell people because they would not understand. Ive only told a few girls who I met or was going to meet and didnt get any bad reactions, sometimes because they had their own weird fetish too. But with all the weird stuff Ive seen on Internet and heard, Im not too worried about telling a new girlfriend. In fact Im counting on meeting somebody to share this with.
Sun, 12/23/2012 - 11:17
#33
No! Dont apologize for long messages. Thats what this place is for, writing, communication. It seems a lot longer when you write it than read it. It was a good message and I agree with a lot of what you said, and what other people said. I dont tell people because they would not understand. Ive only told a few girls who I met or was going to meet and didnt get any bad reactions, sometimes because they had their own weird fetish too. But with all the weird stuff Ive seen on Internet and heard, Im not too worried about telling a new girlfriend. In fact Im counting on meeting somebody to share this with.
Mon, 01/30/2012 - 15:58
#34
I discussed it once with my brother, told my best friend I had one, but not what it was, and most of the closest people in my life figured it out by accident. I don't plan on talking about it to anyone until my first successful relationship. ADD makes things tougher. It's not that I'm embarrassed, just that it's a really awkward topic. I'm looking out for others here!
...Ok, so I'm a bit embarrassed.
Fri, 02/03/2012 - 14:04
#35
Well, it's still a bit difficult for me to say that I like to use this gag a lot. But my goal is to create stuff and make it appealing to both us and the no-inflation people. I showed this game I was working on, "The Antibody", to some no-inflation people and they thought it was pretty original.
Sun, 02/12/2012 - 15:46
#36
darth_clone19
Well, not from "anyone". I have no interest in my mom knowing, but I have told sex partners and I have loved it.
Sun, 02/12/2012 - 15:54
#37
Fairia
I look at mine as a Jeckyl and Hyde perspective. Jeckyl being pleasing, sensual, amazing when done on a role play online session. But most of the time, the Hyde is where my libido is so down, you need to travel halfway into the Earth to dig it out. I really don't have to think about it, at times I would feel uncomfortable with the various related thoughts and images that come in and don't want to associate/connect it to people I know. And it also makes it harder on others to try to get any mood out of me to do anything.
So, I'm not sure if it's more of a mental dysfunction or sexual dysfunction on how little my mood comes around.
Wed, 07/11/2012 - 05:54
#38
Very interesting way in putting it. I usually use the Jekyll and Hyde perspective or syndrome as a representation of my depression. But that it is a very interesting way in how you feel about your inflation.
Wed, 07/11/2012 - 12:37
#39
before, i wouldn't tell anyone about it, totally in fear of the consequences i.e. rumours and bullying. but i have told people, even my girlfriend ( now ex). when i told her i was in tears, thinking it would be all over because i was weird, and then a few months later we were even using it in the bedroom! even going on this site has made me feel a lot more confident with myself and think it's great that we can get together to show eachother we are not alone :). yet, i still dont go out publically; i can see it appearing on the front page of newspapers and magazines everywhere. i urge all people out there who are awkward with this fetish to realise that it doesnt make you " wrong" or "dirty": it makes us different, which is better than being another copy of what society wants us to be. being unique isnt bad, it makes the world a more interesting place and less boring place: feel sorry for those who laugh or don't understand, they can stay in their little worlds while we explore a much larger world! ( yes i meant larger was a pun ^^)
Wed, 07/11/2012 - 23:18
#40
pjoker
I understand, from a logical and conscious perspective, that this fetish doesn't make me immoral or evil. Certainly not in comparison to those who claim to be moral authorities—they are, almost as a rule, the worst of all. This tiny community of weirdos has done zero harm to the world in comparison.
But on a personal level what really counts is that persistent, unconscious disgust you feel toward yourself every time you enjoy something so unnatural. That's what dominates your true feelings about yourself no matter how many people tell you it's OK.
That's how it is for many of us, anyway. If it weren't, this thread wouldn't exist.
Thu, 12/13/2012 - 00:01
#41
Agree. For me, it's the feeling that if I did not have this fetish, I'd have been able to lead a "normal" life and establish "normal" relationships with women. There are times when I get very depressed about this.
Fri, 07/13/2012 - 06:09
#42
While I do keep this interest of ours a secret from friends and family (it's not like it is particuarly hard to do), I'm not ashamed of it. The way I see it, everyone has some strange interest of a sexual nature, something they also keep hidden. Anyone who tries to tell you otherwise is lying.
Fri, 07/13/2012 - 07:58
#43
LisaHoneychan
Since to me, all of my enjoyment of body inflation IS sexual in nature..I'm private IRL about it. One person has heard me talk about it, in-depth before, and he was not only loving and accepting of the kink, he ALSO loves it!
Talking online about it is another thing, tho. I can be more open about it, but don't think i'm ashamed of my kinks and fetishes. I am -hardly- a prude, but I -am- private.
Fri, 07/13/2012 - 20:01
#44
biff977
"How do you feel about your inflation fetish?"...
For me, its a two-edged sword, or (if you'll excuse a little melodrama) a blessing and a curse. My personality type does not accept mainstream, and I revel in anything different in nature. I love it because, well, I love it, but I also love it because it is so far from the norm. If this ever became a popular social kink I doubt I would be able to stick around (thankfully, I think I am safe).
But by the same account, the other half of my brain dislikes it for all the same reasons. Kind of like an itch that can't be scratched, or just wondering why I am so different (although I now know why...Pervasive Developmental Disorder. Don't worry, it's not as bad as it sounds). Part of me, in general (not just inflation-related) grows tired of being asocial or a social outcast. Bear in mind that my challenges transcend anything to do with this interest...my life is hardly the norm by which others can be compared. But this is just me, plain and simple.
Wed, 07/18/2012 - 04:02
#45
I've struggled with it most of my adult life, I've had 2 serious boyfriends and i could not bring myself to tell either one, my boyfriend now who i love more than anything and i feel that keeping this from him is sort of a betrayal, but at the same time i know that in telling him, it would probably mean the end for us, but all of that dosn't stop me from watching Willy Wonka everytime its on tv ;p, so like Biff above said, very much the two-edged sword.
Wed, 07/18/2012 - 06:15
#46
BlueberryBalloon19
I'm sorry to hear that :( If anything telling my GF about my fetish helped bring us closer. Though she does not share my interests in the matter at all it was a trust thing and i'm glad i told her instead of her finding out on a later date on her own.
Wed, 07/18/2012 - 16:14
#47
pjoker
It's likely he'd be a lot more understanding than you think. Would your feelings about him change if he told you he was secretly a furry or something? He may really enjoy the invitation to participate in your secret fantasy. At the same time, I don't think he'd hold it against you for keeping it a secret. I can't say for sure because I don't know this guy, but maybe it's worth reconsidering whether he'd really have such a negative reaction to it.
We're very guarded when it comes to our fetish because it's so unusual. The response I've received every time I've told a girl is, "You thought that was a big deal?"
Thu, 07/19/2012 - 16:38
#48
thank you guys, all good points, I'm also worried about the fallout aswell, we have the same circle of friends so in telling him and later on down the road he decides to call it off... that could really come back to bite me. I know I'm just being a drama queen but hearing all your stories about how happy alot of you are with telling your partners has got me thinking.
Sun, 07/22/2012 - 06:50
#49
I will enjoy when Im in a specific "mood". I have many fetishes and what I find attractive will vary severevly from foot fetish, vore, sneezing, belching/farting and even just regular girls . Mostly I am attracted to women but occastionaly men and most bizzarely myself. I feel very ashamed the majority of the time but when alone sometimes I will switch and find it super sexualy attractive.
Tue, 07/24/2012 - 22:13
#50
It's an online only thing for me. My futile attempt at talking about it with a g/f resulted in her thinking I had an apartment full of inflato dolls that I preferred to her. After that I gave up on trying to talk with anyone face to face about the kink.
Mon, 12/10/2012 - 11:58
#51
I dont like it, but for some reason it continues
I usually only discuss it online, and only on certain sites like my dA.
Now THIS is love!