Let me start off by saying its been at least 4 years since the last time i visted a forum, much less actually posted on one. I came here in hopes that i actually found a way to contact other people interested in all of this. I've been into inflation as long as i can remember, but did not realize it was a sexual affiliation until i was in my early teens. Did not have any way to access much virtual inflation parafanilia, so i made corny little comics, and tried my hand at photo manipulation. However, like most people i assume, i have never told anyone about it. its gotten to the point that i just try and block it out- but its difficult.
So i have decided, maybe if i talk to someone about it, or at least find a better way to indulge the behavior, maybe it wont be so overbearing. Let me add, i hardly have much taste for the freakier side. I prefer simple, even sillier inflations.
I really dont know where to go from here... so. Im 21, if that matters.
Always glad to see someone here. The very fact that we're here means that most of us are probably at least somewhat accepting of our inflation fetishism. Since i was twenty-one in 1988, i lacked the luxury of the internet to make me aware i wasn't completely alone in this. I can only speak for myself, but it's never gone away whether or not i've encouraged it, so i advise you just to accept it. It doesn't make you a bad person. There are two issues with it really. One is how flexible you or someone else can be with it - can you enjoy sex any other way and can someone else accept that you're into this and accommodate it? The other is that if you can't be flexible and neither can a partner, your choice of compatible potential partners is very limited because it's rare. One way of coping with it is just to have a double life where you have relatively vanilla sex with people as an expression of love and bonding (or to have children if you're hetero) and also an active fantasy life involving, to be frank, a lot of masturbation. It did start to go away a bit when i was twenty but it later came back with a vengeance, and i wonder if my life history had been a bit different, whether it would've gone away completely, but it didn't and i can't say if it will for you or not. However, this is a great group here and the people here are fantastic and i for one am very glad you've found it.
Incidentally, i've written a little bit about my thoughts on the psychology of this thing but really we could do with a research community, which we lack due to the scepticism of mainstream academics.
http://www.youtube.com/user/nineteenthly