OK, I won't bore you, so I'll tell you all what's up with me, but you will all aready know anyway; I have a weight gain/inflation fetish, and I'm really mixed on it at the moment. It's ruining my life and i don't know what to do, and I'm a wreck.
I don't know how or why I have it, but I got it around 2 years ago; i just neglected it, hoping it would go away, but it didn't, and every now and again I tempt myself and watch videos and read stories about it. Here's the major problem; i don't know whether or not I want it.
On one hand, i absolutely hate it. I find it weird and disgusting, and i want to get help from a therapist to get rid of it as quick as I possibly can. i dislike it around 40% of the time, and the faster it goes, the better I'll feel.
HOWEVER, 60% of the time I love it, because no matter what I tell myself, I always go and watch it, and find sexual pleasure from it. It feels good to have something like this; it turns me on and I like it. I don't know how or why, but anything, from boueberry to hourglass inflation gives me a LOT of sexual pleasure. Full body is my favourite though.
But, I'm not sure if I want it to go away, along with keeping it and not being judged. it's weird as I'm I keep myself fit and try to be as healthy as possible, but I get sexual intrigue from body inflation and huge weight gain. I don't know whether or not I want to get rid of it. It's weird and I'm undecided on what I want.
I'm guessing asking a forum on the website if body inflation is going to be showing bias, but It would be MUCH APPRECIATED if you tell me weirder fetishes than body inflation, it'll make me fell less weirded out.
Should I keep my fetish and enjoy it, or do I try to get rid of it? If I get rid of it, I'll be happy, but that would make me asexual; If I keep it, I'm happy, just embarrassed and feel weird, but still happy, and hopefully I'd be able to find someone with the same fetish anyway. Thanks
I have no real input as to the keeping or not as that is a personal choice.
But I have yet to find weirder or creepier fetishes than many that exist on the net. You can find people with fetishes for all things down to scat, chairs, murder, amputation, balloons. There are hundreds if not thousands more weirder fetishes than weightgain and inflation.
Weightgain and inflation do have their darksides and their own creepy factor (not judging) depening on who is giving input.
But for me inflation fetish is mostly something light hearted and playful (and my girlfriend while not being into it herself is into the effect it has on me when she starts playing)
So while its up to you just keep in mind, there are many varieties of fetishes, ours is only a small smattering.