Advice, rp, or chat.

ok so this has gotten to the point I need advice. I love bellies, but I'm to afraid to inflate myself. so far I've been satofying my mental lust with rps, but anyone willing to rp stuffing or inflation is rare on kik. This all stemmed from a time when I was thirteen, I was with a friend for a week and it was his birthday. only two problems, he was gay and lonely. he had a big infatuation for bellies, all he wanted for his birthday was a nice round belly to love. me being me, no matter how weird I thought it was, I told him he could do whatever he wanted, as long as it didn't permanently hurt or kill me. he instantly got to work, stuffing me so full I basically looked pregnant. I was in so much pain I don't understand how I came to like this. I'm lost and confused, so please. if anyone has advice, wants to rp, or just chat my kik is necromancerlovers

for rp please send rp
for chat please send chat
for advice, please send the word advice

please and thank you.