(I'm posting this depressing and emo-ish rant here because maybe there will be someone else who has gone through this same thing in their lives. Imam sorry for the long post)
It never fails. I've had the fascination of body inflation long before I even knew it what it was called. 9 years now since ever since I came across this very site, I've known that this was my kink. Now a days everyone wants to know your dirties little fantasy, or what turns you on. Every friend I've talked to always thinks they have the weirdest thing that turns them on, of course until I tell them mine. Granted it take a bit of prying and few drinks in me to finally tell them, all the while my heart's pounding and I shake from a adrenaline rush. Soon as I do it's met with much negativity and quick alienation. I've should've learned my lesson 10 friends ago but I guess I never learn to keep my mouth shut.
You would hope that people would be more open minded, but oh boy can you quickly change that when you say it drives me crazy thinking about a woman's body blowing up like a balloon getting bigger and rounder. Yes, I understand it's pretty goddamn weird, but Im surprised how many are so quick you can make someone feel uncomfortable just by saying it.
My most recent awkward moment came from a friend I've known for about 6 years now. She's an artist a damn good one too. She would share with me many of her kinks and questionable artwork she's done. I keeping a complete open mind got down with her on it. You each his own and whatever floats your boat and that sort of thing. I can see the sex appeal and a lot of them, I met hers with positively. She would also draw other people's fetish for her friends, which made me want to commission her, but never really wanted to speak up due to past events. Now, she shows me one of her most recent drawing and it's of a bbw lady she was doing for a boy she likes, a comment that I also liked bbws a lot (this is true), so I get the idea that maybe just maybe she could commission some inflation art...
It takes awhile to ask her. At first she's thrilled that I even want to pay her for drawing, and even giving me the friend price of half the cost for full color. I on the other hand want her to pay the full price seeing as how this is odd request. Finally instead of asking her flat out for an inflation sketch I ask her want she would feel uncomfortable with, and sure even as she puts it. " I don't draw HUGE ladies like of astronomical proportions" that fell under my Inflation art. I told her yes I've wanted this, she had heard about it and made her super uncomfortable, in turn making me feel stupid, embarrassed, and ashamed of even asking her.
It concerns me mainly because of the way it made me feel and has been bothering me for days now. She won't even talk to me at all and I've tried to reach out, just with normal everyday things, and I get nothing back. I feel like jeez, does this fetish, this kink, this small community really offend people? Or why can't some people just be like 'meh' and move on. I know all the about the hate we get on Devart and other places that discover the body inflation community so it's always going to be there. It just hits a low blow when it's someone who is your friend. I should take my own advice and just keep my mouth shut, but there's always that small spark I'll find someone else who is into it.
So that's my story, please share your story about "coming out" to your friends, and how it went, I'd love to hear it.
Thank you all for reading, much love! <3
I get the feeling that people think really negatively about it because it's something non-sexual they've seen in everyday life. Now these are just some theories of mine.
Like if you've gone shopping with someone you know and later they tell you they have a shoe fetish and they think it's really sexy when someone puts shoes on. Suddenly, you remember all the times you've put your shoes on in front of them, and how many times they've seen people put shoes on, and then assume that they're some exploitative secret pervert that's hiding their shoe fetish so they can watch unsuspecting people put shoes on and get off on it without telling them.
OR, seeing body inflation stuff somehow or other makes them uncomfortable about their own body image. Like, they look at and pick up on some hidden symbolism that we don't see that they think is demeaning to men/women, or maybe it subconsciously reminds them of a part of themselves they hate. Or something like that.
OR, they associate inflation with cartoons, and they associate cartoons with children, and so make the illogical leap associating inflation with pedophilia, since it's not inherently sexual, it wasn't made to be, and children watch it, and we're perverting it with our sexual lust. That one is a bit of a stretch, but these are just theories of mine, and I'm not a psychologist, so I really couldn't tell you.