So I'm new all around.

Hello to all, I am just getting into this fetish and would like to become a part of the community... I found being a furry was much easier after I became a part of the community and I'm hoping that maybe reaching out to people here will make me feel less weird.

My boyfriend confided in me a long time ago that he was into a lot of different fetishes, inflation and popping being one. I have always induldged him in dirty talk and teasing but I honestly made a promise to myself that I never wanted to see him inflate and I would NEVER EVER let him do it to me. However, after 5 years had passed and hearing how he inflated every weekend now, I got curious. I think he sensed I was more than just pacifying at this point and told me what he wanted for Valentine's day was for us to inflate each other.

I tried to weasle out of it, still not sure if it is what I really wanted. At this point I had started to look at inflation work and it has turned me on in the past few months, but I had never reached climax to it. However, nothing could surprise me more than what happened Valentine's night. I pushed it off as late as I could and even hid under the covers, just embarassed that he would even consider putting something in my butt. However he talked me down and managed to get a hose back there and used a hand pump.

I was surprised at how it felt, and I expected it to hurt a lot more than it did. It was shocking to me that I found out that this felt so intimate, even though it wasn't exactly sexual. He seemed to love that my tummy actually buldged out and started to feel tight. I said 'No' plenty (as is a common reflex for me when I am even slightly peturbed)  but only said the safe word once.

I feel ashamed that I actually enjoyed going through with it. He says he wants to do it again and I have told him it was definitely a once in a life time deal, but I actually think back on it and feel incredibly turned on. Is this normal? Any advice?