Fuck this I’m out

I can’t be a part of a community where some of the loudest voices are bitter mean spirited enablers. Where a difference in political belief turns into a personal witch hunt filled with threats not even based on truth or reality. A part of me didn’t want to make it seem like I “let bullies win” but that’s not what this is. This is me saying I have enough respect for myself to not have to be raked through the coals. I seem to have amassed a little entourage of enemies who hate me for some of the dumbest reasons. 

When I started openly posting here in my late teens I was a different person. More easily scared. More easily manipulated. Perhaps more than too ambitious. I’ve learned from that. It’s become obvious my contributions and attempts to add a little something are for naught. At the same time I admit many of them were misguided and morally dubious at best and completely reprehensible at worst. Whatever. I don’t strive for acceptance anymore. I’ve grown and don’t need it from an online community. Despite what some manchildren may think I’ve matured. 

I just can’t believe that the sentence “Fuck Racism” turned into a mini political shit storm here. Then again that’s just the state of our country. A couple of privileged fucks pissed that the world saw that their gig is up and not wanting to be equal and attacking and attempting to silence even the simplest forms of awareness. It’s 2017 and posters in a fucking fetish forum of all places are losing their shit over the phrase Fuck Racism. I can’t believe this. Yet I can. 

Anyway enough of that. And this isn’t the whole VMan is gone but becomes BnH thing. I’m out. That being said since I’ve seen something happen with other creators who disappeared so I will say this. Please don’t openly seek anything I’ve posted in the past. This is not because I find that it’s anything wrong but simply because I would rather leave that chapter behind me. In private amongst yourselves be my guest. I just don’t want to be on here in two years and see some “DAE have the videos with the Latina chicks in big blue suit?” thread in the vein of all these Bambi etc. posts. Please don’t. I’ll come back temporarily and call you out in the future if I have to. That being said I know it’s the internet. I’m not stupid I know nothing goes away  

I know I have to make a separate thread to officially delete my account but I’ll do that soon. I’m not special or prolific nor do I want to strive to be anymore. That being said I hate that apparently to some I’m associated with “crazy outspoken opinions” which shouldn’t even be debatable. I’ve had a controversial history on these forums and there’s no escaping that minus a hard reset. Thanks to anyone I’ve talked to that’s supported me. And to those I’m currently having open communications through the site don’t worry. I’ll keep in touch and you’ll know it’s me (;

Bye y’all. It was still fun while it lasted.